So much stuff

The unexamined life is not worth living

So many thoughts - so little time. :)

First off, this mountaineering weekend is getting me so excited. I'm nervous, anxious, excited and giddy all at once (maybe that's just my allergies...). It's like looking forward to losing your virginity. Yes, it's that awesome.

Second, interesting observation today - I immediately went from good mood to a terrible dark mood when I drove into work. It started the moment I was on the property and I was overcome with the urge to "destroy something beautiful". I'm kinda surprised my antithesis of my job is so strong in so short of time. I wonder if others have the same Pavlovian conditioning so quickly...

Third, I had a wonderful evening last night. Not that I didn't miss Steph (in fact, it was utterly wonderful to have her return from her climbing trip - like falling in love again), but I had a nice dinner of orange chicken and rice, with a bottle of gatorade and some Bach's toccata en fugue playing in the background, all the while reading "The Freedom of the Hills". For some reason, I experienced a heightened sort of perception (no, I wasn't doing drugs). The rice tasted sweet and I reveled in the texture of each individual grain. The chicken was slightly too sweet but I thoroughly enjoyed the contrasting texture of the fried surface. And Bach (ah, Bach!) was a genious. His melodies are melodies within melodies. I could hear subdivisions within the whole. Each crescendo had was timed so well to a background of organic instruments, and each moment was a flurry of intertwined and overlayed patterns. I think I'm going to look into symphony tickets if Bach's work is going to be played - it was simply awesome.

Finally, I had a vivid dream last night of LA being utterly destroyed in a nuclear attack. I did watch "Chronicles of Riddick" a few days ago - maybe I was incorporating LA with some of the events from that movie...

In any case, I'm going to listen to some Crystal Method now (the music group or the drug? you decide). This could get interesting...