I have faced my fear

this morning while meditating, I came across something unexpected. I huge wave of anxious fear. I sat at the edge of it, completely surprised how much of it existed.

I'm not sure what the fear is in response to. But it's there. It reminded me of the fear I faced recently while trying to lead Taxman. That was a fear of failure and had a different... flavor... to it. But the quantity is quite the same.

in other news, I'm resolved just to accept my job as is for the time being. Instead of allowing it to try to define who I am and what I do, I will accept that it's just a means to acquire funds for the greater things in life i.e. climbing :)