Am I hurting myself?
I discovered yesterday that I have been afflicted with painful injuries for so long that I no longer remember what it's like without them.
It occurred to me when I was sitting at my workstation and absent mindedly stretching my wrist. Then I couldn't tell if I was stretching it too far, or if I damaging more tissue. Then I thought about all the pain I was currently experiencing and realized that I had pains EVERYWHERE. Not just at injury points, but everywhere on my body. I couldn't remember if this was new due to age or if it was all there and I just never paid them any attention.
In any case, I had a few minutes of a panic as I didn't know what the "normal" level of pain threshold was. Should I cry out? Should I keep a stiff upper lip? Should I complain about my pains and see a doctor? Or are these pains and aches what everyone also feels and they just don't realize it?
At this point, my joint injuries are blurring the lines between good and bad pain. Good pain being pains such as muscle fatigue from working out and bad pains being... well... injuries. I'm starting not to be able to tell the difference in my shoulder or my wrist - is it supposed to feel that way? Or is this abnormal?
This is going to make it a little difficult to ascertain whether I'm healed or not... hmmm...
Maybe I can just get a new cybernetic body like Darth Vader and say to hell with my current body. The warranty is expiring anyway.
2 Comments:
hows the pain?
Pain is good. The pain is good if only I sit there and really think about it... but can't tell if it's a figment of my imagination or if it's really there. Kinda like trying to be aware if there's an itch on your body anywhere - try it.
By the way, who are you?
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